goodbye blogging.

i really want to blog.  i want to talk about my amazing students.  i want to talk about what i saw fox news.  i want to talk about north american christians and their church.  i want to talk about social justice whores and fakes.  i want to talk about my mom’s engagement.

but every time i sit down to type out my thoughts, i feel bad.  i feel like a voyeuristic story-collector, a haughty liberal socialist, a self-loathing elitist, a quencher of good intentions, and a bad son, respectively.  but not just a few years ago, i would have had no problem dropping the knowledge and shitting all over other people’s poor choices for the masses to read about (on xanga, of course).   what’s happened to me?  has my age slowed my quick tongue?  has life beaten me into intellectual apathy?  has my edge been so dulled?  . . . of course not.  i still love kicking ass and making bitches shake hands . . . fuck shit.

i am happy to say, i’ve lived a great adult life.  i have seen and done a lot more than i thought i would these last couple of years.  i lived and experienced things i had only read about previously.  meaning and purpose is abundant, and i feel alive in reality.  so now when i try to blog, it feels like i’m just rewriting stories that i don’t have to be written down.  i feel like i cheapen the experience by recreating it for an audience.  and i know that i, too, am a part of my own audience when i blog; fortifying my pre-existing, narrow-minded, “progressive” beliefs with well-composed diatribe and self-assuring prose.  for me, blogging is bad for my health.

so goodbye blogging.  i’m sure i’ll visit every now and then if i have some amazing revelation of the human condition, or if i have something supremely amusing and stupid to share.  but for now, i’m quite content keeping my stories my own.

goodbye my wordpress . . .
a lonely journal awaits.
five more syllables.

Adobe Illustrator

So in all of my glorious, summer free time as an educator, I decided to learn how to use Adobe Illustrator.  [Much thanks to my sister, who just got a blog, for the free amazing software].  My first project was to redesign the JEMS WarmBeach logo for this year . . . the first one was pretty lame.  I made some improvements by adding some nerdy math humor, replacing the fool on the tightrope with Ryu a haduken, and a putting shiny opacity mask in the middle.  Sure there’s too much going on, it only took 20 min to make, and it probably won’t be used for anything other than my own amusement and sense of accomplishment; but I thought I’d share my work with you all anyway.

BEFORE & AFTER:

A totally unrelated idea: I’ve missed blogging.  I’ve been journaling a lot lately, and I think I finally have my thoughts put together on what I’ve been wanting to write about for a while now . . . next post: the Church.

^_^

it’s saturday night.
alone, i’ve canceled my plans
because it’s snowing.

What a great day . . . went to work, got about 90 pages worth of biology work graded, saw tyler wright et al(very briefly, but for some reason was meaningful, at least to me . . .), drank hot water while i watched the snow fall,  and now i get to finish it off on wordpress.  Time for a little update.

Sexy & Sublime.

 

Two of my best friends got married.  Congratulations to Jeff and Carrie Lam.  Everyone is happy for you two.  [I would normally insert inappropriate joke about Jeff becoming a man here, but my superiors at Crista are watching.  haha]  But more importantly: we got to drink Cristal.  Cristal!  I felt like a super star, like a true baller letting those million dollar bubbles dance on the tip of my tongue.  Did you know the “plastic” wrapping that it comes in is actually a UV shield????  Sexy and Sublime.

Carnal.

My first Seahawks game!  I got to go with one of my students from school (Seattle Urban Academy).  I was privileged to hear stories from his life as we searched desperately for parking, walked through China town, and watched the Seahawks play a great game and lose like suckers in the last 2 min.  heh.  Thanks Charles, I had a great time.  Now, I’m not gonna lie.  I don’t know much about football – I never  fully understood the appeal.  But that day at Qwest Field inspired me.  It was like we were at war battling for everything we held dear in life (Charles and I were ninjas) . . . and I loved it.  Something carnal in me was awakened that made me want to read the sports section, learn players stats, drink beer and curse loudly.  We’ll see what happens . . .

Cute. 

My mom moved to Thailand a few months ago (don’t forget to checkout her blog here.  She updates more than I do!)  This is a picture of my grandparents talking to their daughter over Skype.  If this picture doesn’t make you smile a little bit you have no soul.

Hillarious.

Lindak posted this on facebook.  It made rejoining soooo worth it.  It’s pretty amusing up until about 2:40.  Then it just gets freaking hilarious.

Kozu.

Kozu, we’re glad you’re still alive.  Bwahahaha.  >_^

Facebook Pt. II

yes, i rejoined it . . . i’ll write more on why later. in the mean time, be my friend. ^^

A Few Updates . . .

here’s just a few of the things i’ve been up to in life.  ^^  enjoy.

1.  pumpkin carving party . . . this is aaron mochizuki’s carving of president elect barack obama.  unbelievable.  i have another picture where i’m giving him the finger for being so amazing and making us all look bad … but i’ve been asked to keep the content of this website a little more “family friendly”.  haha  ^^

2.  SUA halloween costume . . . for halloween i dressed up as another teacher at SUA – dr. michael friedland.  it was a huge success.  from far away, some of the student mistook me for the 10 year veteran of the school.  the only thing i had to spend money on was the tweed jacket, that i got at good will for $4.  money.

3.  jeff lam’s bachelor party:  a pretty good night at the tulalip casino.  we ate well, came out on top (except for jeff who blew $200 on one hand … hahaha), and had some fellowship.  despite jeff’s fear that i would make him get naked and do something horrible on his special night, i still planned the event.  he didn’t have to do anything too outrageous.  ^_________________^

4.  friend from philly . . . i miss these guys.  paul from kentucky and chamba from tibet (paul is on the left in case you couldn’t tell, and chamba is on the right in case you couldn’t tell nor deduce).  i miss these guys.  hopefully i’ll be seeing them this summer in SE asia . . .

5.  i mostly wrote this post so my mom could see what i’ve been up to lately.  she’s in thailand.  go visit her blog here: my mom’s wordpress.

hope all is well friends and that you had a good veteran’s day off.  i slept for 14 hours last night.  freaking glorious.

-chris